Weekly Photo Challenge: Inspiration

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For this weeks photo challenge, Inspiration, I decided to go with a picture that was shot as is. There has been no editing to this picture. No manipulation. What you see is what you get. I picked this particular shot because it inspires me as a photographer to keep bettering my techniques and improve upon everything I already have learned. When I can take pictures like this one and see it in its full beauty, knowing I don’t have to tweak it the slightest bit, it inspires me to go out and do it again. In the recent years I have really worked on learning my camera better and understanding how to compose a perfect shot. As I learn I can see the results when I upload them and see them on a large screen. With each session I can see more and more pictures that need no fixing, and that inspires me as a photographer.

Weekly Photo Challenge: Close Up

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For this weeks photo challenge, Close Up, I was torn between so many images. To be honest macro photography is just what I do. It is my one true love…if you catch me out in the field it is most likely because I am taking macro photos. I just can’t help myself. Over the years I have honed my macro photography taking abilities and in recent months have ended up with beautiful shots like the one above. As you all know I love lily pads and boy when they bloom I am on them like a hawk. This shot just got lucky enough to capture the bee buzzing around this beautiful open bloom. I hope you enjoy!

Weekly Photo Challenge: Half and Half

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“Today I begin to understand what love must be, if it exists… When we are parted, we each feel the lack of the other half of ourselves. We are incomplete like a book in two volumes of which the first has been lost. That is what I imagine love to be: incompleteness in absence.”

-Edmond de Goncourt
For this weekly photo challenge, Half and Half , I decided to go back to my Italy photographs. I have to be honest, this was a tricky challenge. Looking through my photographs nothing screamed half and half until I came to this image. This image was taken in Florence, Italy. I was there with family and we were just walking the streets aimlessly. The clouds in the sky were picturesque and the architecture was incredible. And thus this photograph was born!

Returning From My Hiatus

Well its been quite a few months since I decided to take a break from blogging. I guess the main reason was that college was stressful and the medical drama was piling up. It was just becoming frustrating maintaining my blog writing about such deeply emotional topics. But I have returned sort of? I have reopened up my blog and plan to update here and there, but mostly turn this into my photography page. I will continue to give updates about my health, but as for the really deep personal stories I think they are going to come to a halt for now. As much as I loved sharing, and how therapeutic it was, it was just becoming overwhelming having those memories back in the forefront.

But I have decided to take on another venture! For awhile now I have been thinking of creating a beauty blog, since I got the hang of things running this site. So alas it is up and running! If you want to go check it out it’d be greatly appreciated. I think having that will create a nice balance between this site and that site. So I look forward to connecting with everyone again and look forward to writing updates about my health along with posting my personal photography! I have high hopes for my beauty blog and am keeping in mind that the skies the limit!

And if you’re interested check out my new blog Not Always Knotty

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Weekly Photo Challenge: Afloat

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“Reverie is when ideas float in our mind without reflection or regard of the understanding”. –John Locke

For this weeks photo challenge Afloat I went with my go to item to photograph, lily pads. This picture always takes me back to walking around and marveling at all the beautiful blooming lily pads, then right next to the flowering beauties were these massive lily pads, easy 3 or 4 feet across. They might have not had any flower to bloom but the way they floated on top of the water made it almost more beautiful than any blooming flower. They did not draw your attention immediately but when you started to truly look you could see how wonderful they were.

Truthful Tuesday: Moving On

Welcome to my first Truthful Tuesday, where I dedicate my post to telling the truth. I hope some of these truths can bring better perspective to aspects of yourself.

The truth is…

Writing this weekend’s story shares was one of the most emotional experiences I have faced with this blog so far. For me the breakup with the 5-year was a story that needed to be told before I can go further in many of my postings. I feel as if readers need a better background to understand where my blog is going. But for me personally it was so emotionally draining that it took me multiple attempts to write it. Going through detail after detail wracked my brain so hard that after about 5 minutes of writing I had to take a break. The knot in my stomach was growing each time I went back, but in my mind this post needed to be put out there.

After I had completed them and posted them I went back to read them one more time. Those two blogs are two I am extremely proud of. I feel as if writing them was very therapeutic for me. I see myself as a strong individual, that forcefully gets over things quickly mostly by blocking them out, but these posts made me remember and with that came pain. But with the pain came further healing.

It has been a few years since this all happened and I have dealt with most of the grief but writing these posts brought up more than I was expecting. I see it all as a good thing though. I see it as progress.

The truth is….

2 days after he left he changed his Facebook status to in a relationship with her and started posting pictures of everything they were doing together. After he left I lost about 20lbs in 13 days. I didn’t eat. All I did was sleep. I only dragged myself to some of my classes, ending up with low grades that semester. I was falling apart day by day and nothing could help me. I ended up in the hospital multiple times with severe chest pains, which I now attribute to dehydration and mainly heart break. I had no one in my life to talk to other than my mother, and she was being stubborn with trying to wipe him out of my memory. I needed my own time to heal and gather my thoughts. Icouldn’t be forced to move forward by anyone.

The truth is…

Moving on is the hardest, most grueling process you will ever know or face. For some moving on isn’t an option, for others it is not needed. Some may need days, other years, or others yet who need lifetimes. Eventually though through own self perseverance and strength I believe everyone has it in them to move on.

The most important part to starting this process is realizing that you are somebody. That no matter what, that person didn’t take you. You always had you. You might have been with them, changed who you seem to be, but when they leave you are still you. You might be bruised and broken, and shattered into a thousand pieces, but piece by piece you can rebuild yourself.healing

It took almost 2 years for me to get to where I am now. I am over him and what he did to me. I have grown significantly in the time since he has left. I am finally able to say I am proud of myself for standing on my own, for figuring out who I really am as a person, not who I was with him.

It takes time, serious, hard, time. But one day you will come out the other side better than you ever expected.